This is My Life

Did you know that a ’sworn virgin’ is called such because she swears to become a man. From the day she takes this vow, she becomes a man: she dresses likes one, acts like one, walks like one, works like one, talks like one, and her family and community treats her as one. She is referred to as he. He will never marry and will remain celibate all ‘his’ life.

According to Uncle Forbes, most men do not spend a lot of time thinking about shoes. For men, shoes are usually best appreciated when kicked off at the end of a long day. Sneakers for the gym, a good pair of boots, some loafers and a few sober shoes for the office — that’s about it. Better still, for the most part, men’s shoe styles seldom change, so as long as he doesn’t leave them out in the rain for several days or let the dog use them as a chew toy, he doesn’t need buy new pairs every year. I beg to differ. One should also have shoes for driving and shopping. In fact, one could have shoes for every activity or occasion one could think of. I think it’s totally inappropriate for Neal, the one who wrote the article, to generalize men and their relationship with shoes. Don’t worry, I’m not pressing charges.

I read in BBC that the cost of current US military operation in Iraq is $5.6 Billion a month. That’s almost a quarter of the ANNUAL budget of a mid-size Third World country, i.e. the Philippines. This doesn’t even include the billions of dollars the Americans are spending for reconstruction and aid. I think the government and private sector should have explored opportunities on how we could have particiapted on some of the lucrative deals besides sending cheap labor.

Why do I have a boring life? Why do I feel like everybody around me are enjoying their lives to the hilt while my existence is mediocre at best? I contstantly engage myself on trivial pursuits that are, well, trivial. Is this all in my mind? Can I ‘will’ this to change?

I just finished eating a box of chocolates. I tried to stop myself but the flesh is weak. I hope I can force myself out of bed tomorrow and go to the gym.

It’s freezing cold outside. I’m going home soon to bask under the blazing heat of the tropical sun… and sweat like a pig. This is why I have no intention of buying myself a pair of gloves and ear muffs. I am confident I’d be able to endure the cold for the next three weeks without them…so I hope.

I’m watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire tomorrow! I hope it’s good. Next week I’m watching Rent. I’m excited just thinking about it, I’m sure I’m going to cry.

‘Traumatic Relationship’… haven’t had one…thank God…or not…but I’ve seen 3 friends of mine go through them in the last 3 weeks I feel traumatized myself.

Why do men…ok people…have the gall to cheat and at the same time profess their undying love to their partners? Worst, why do people put up with it? My theory…these people are in love with the concept of love…they just want to be with someone…they want something constant in their life…I could be wrong though.

How does one fall out of love? Is this even possible? Was he/she in love in the first place? I think that’s what happened to my friend…she fell out of love…correct me if I’m wrong dear. I’m just happy she realized this before 2006.

I pity those who coward behind other people… i.e. their MOTHER…or behind God. I loathe those who don’t have the ‘balls’ to stand for what they believe in…or to make a stand at all…I just described the ‘ex’ of my friend…yes she actually liked him…a momentary lapse in judgment…she is definitely better off without him.

It is cold.

Here’s a birthday greeting from one of my evaughl friends.

"Sa ngalan ng Buwan, Binabati kita ng Maligayang Kaarawan!

Iisa lang ang hiling namin sa pinagpalang araw na ito. Maliban sa mabuting kalusugan, hangad namin ang mabuting kapalaran sa iyong pakikipagsapalaran sa buhay.

Naway mabasag na ang iyong kawalang malay at masamyo na ang halimuyak ng iyong  nagbabadyang gumamela.

Nawa’y manatili ang iyong kasariwaan sa harap ng maraming pagsubok.

Mabuhay ka…ngunit mas mabuhay kami

Nagmamahal,

Hertrudes"

I bought a new pair of shoes for my birthday.

I’m turning 25 soon. Can I still use juvenile apathy as an excuse for my life’s lack of direction?

Going to a salon this evening to have my hair cut. I hope their good because I’m spending good money for this! http://www.kimsunyoungny.com/

Jasmine and I are going to Roxy tonight as well. I still don’t know what to wear. Jeans and sneakers are not allowed! My goal is to make new friends tonight. Baby steps.

On Sunday I’m going to watch a marathon at Central Park.

I want buy a new pair of shoes, a birthday gift for myself.